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🍌 Nutella banana bread recipe | RandomRani

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I absolutely love banana bread- I love how simple it is to make, how amazing it makes my flat smell and how you don’t waste those bananas that are slightly over-ripe.
This recipe is my absolute favourite, it has nutella in it. Anything + nutella = 10000000000000 times better, duh.

So, the recipe is super simple-
You need:

  • 3 over-ripe bananas, peeled and mashed (if you don’t have the patience to wait for your bananas to riped you can always squeeze the peel and then leave it for an hour, they will go brown pretty quick.)
  • 110 g melted butter
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1 table spoon of cocoa powder
  • Pinch of salt
  • 150 g of sugar
  • 1 large egg, beaten
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 2 tablespoons of Nutella
  • 200 grams of all-purpose flour
  • Some extra Nutella to use as icing.

How to (it really is this simple):

  • Pre-heat your oven on 175 degrees Celsius.
  • Beat the egg.
  • Add all the ingredients.
  • Poor/spoon (depending on how ripe the bananas were) the mixture in a cake tin.
  • Bake in the oven for 55 minutes- you know it is done when you put a knife in the middle and it comes out clean)
  • Let it cool.
  • Spread some Nutella on top, you can also use some chocolate sprinkles if you want to live life on the edge.bananabread.jpg

 

🐇 Easter treats | Chocolate nests | RandomRani

easter nestsWith Easter coming up I decided to make myself some Chocolate nests.
It’s quick, simple and absolutely delicious.

ingredients:

– 3 pieces of Shredded Wheaties
– milk- or dark chocolate
– a bag of mini eggs
– some cute cupcake cases

How to:

– melt the chocolate in a stone/glass bowl above a boiling pot of water
– crush the Shredded Wheaties in a large bowl
– add the melted chocolate
– I like to add a few drops of vanilla extract to the mixture
                      Try not to eat all of the Shredded Weaties of the spoon
– Spoon the Shredded Wheaties and chocolate mixture into the cupcake cases
– use either a spoon or your finger to make the middle part deeper than the corners
– put some mini eggs in the middle
– Leave in the fridge to set for 20-30 minutes
– Enjoy the amazingness.

👩What I wish they would have told me growing up | RandomRani

As a young adult – that is soooo weird to say by the way- there’s certain things that I wish people would have told me when I was younger.
In school they teach you how to multiply and count to 10 in French, but they don’t teach you how to do your taxes or how to pick yourself up from the cold kitchen floor when you got your heart broken for the first time.

They teach you what a mental illness is, but not how to call for help.

I made a little list of things, that I wish I would have known when I was younger and that I hope can be of help to any of you guys that are struggling with the transition from teenager to young adult.

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  • It is ok not to be ok.If you have read my blog post on mental health you will know that I have had my fair share of struggles in life.
    Sometimes it’s ok not to be ok, as long as you realise that you will be ok.- makes sense? You will feel like everything and everyone is against you, believe me, we all felt that way at some point, but you will be alright. Not feeling ok every once in a while is completely normal, but if you feel like you are not ok for a long period of time go and talk to your doctor- he will decide if you need professional help.
    There’s a page on my blog dedicated to suicide help lines, please call them if you  are thinking about committing suicide.
  • A broken heart will heal, but first it will hurt like hell.When my s/o cheated on me my heart shattered into a million pieces, it actually felt as if I was going to die. I physically dropped on my knees and cried for my mum- sounds like I’m being overly dramatic but honestly that’s how I felt.
    It took me a really long time until I felt as if I glued my heart back together, but whenever I thought back to that time I could feel it shatter again. The first heart break is the worst- but I promise you it will heal.
    Do not lock yourself in, go and make some memories- travel, meet new people.
    It’s all going to be okay.
  • You do not need to buy those expensive acne products, they will not work anyways.When you are a teenager your skin will have it’s ups and downs.
    Quite literally actually, but unless your doctor advises you to see a dermatologist and they put you on prescription products, you do not need to splurge on expensive acne products.
    They will not work, just washing your skin with water or a gentle cleanser however, definitely will.
    Most of teenage acne is caused by hormones, that’s why these creams will not do any good in the long run.
  • Use the money you save on number 3 to make memories.I wish I had travelled more, and done more and lived more. Now that I have a job there’s a limited amount of days that can be dedicated to travel and fun.
    Also, funds are designated to rent and saving for a rainy day- so every excess money you have will probably go to TGIF happy hours. #IAMJUSTBEINGREALHERE
  • Save more money for later.I wish I had saved more money for when I would be moving out.
    Moving out is freaking expensive, you need deposits, furniture, insurance, etc.
    That’s why I would have saved more if I could do it over.
  • Your mental health is more important than your grades.I ended up quitting school for my mental health, and the conversation with my parents was the hardest talk I ever had. But it was also one of the best things I had ever done. I wish I would have known it was okay to sacrifice your grades for your mental health. If you feel like crap, you should talk to someone.
  • That shade of foundation/blush/powder/eye shadow/etc is completely wrong.Everyone I know had this phase of horrible colour matching, please go to a professional to colour match you. So you don’t have to go through this entire awkward period in your teenage years.
  • You will fall in and out of love with the same person, multiple times- don’t be scared, that’s normal.I have been in a relationship for over 4 years, and I can honestly say that I have fallen in and out of love multiple times.
    I have always loved my s/o, but the honeymoon period comes and went for me.
    You will find out new personality traits that you dislike or love about them, or face hard times in life when you see that they are so right for you.
    This happens, and it is nothing to be afraid of. It just means you are normal.
  • Your boss will not be like a teacher, a job is not like school.When you just come out of school, you are still in a mindset where there’s a hierarchy of popularity. You are friends with other students, and mix your personal and school life- and that’s ok.
    At work it’s important to not do this in the beginning, your boss is not a teacher.
    If you do bad, you will not get a bad grade but could get fired.
    You are being paid to do what you do, so it’s important to not take things to casually. When you go out for a drink with colleagues, do not get drunk- you will end up being the laugh of the office.
  • Your house will not be perfect, or clean all the time- that’s what makes it a home.Do you remember playing doll house and making everything look nice and pretty and clean all the time? Designing your house in the Sims with only the prettiest furniture and stuff? That will not always happen in the real world.
    You will come home to a pile of dishes, because you had to finish a report the night before and didn’t have time.
    Your Christmas decor might be up until February, real life is messy- so do not think you are bad at “adulting” just because your sofa has a stain, or you forgot to do your laundry for the week.
    Life will always throw stuff at you which you are not prepared for- that’s perfectly fine.

 

 

 

“Why aren’t you happy yet?” | RandomRani

“You are not your illness. You have an individual story to tell. You have a name, a history, a personality. Staying yourself is part of the battle.” – J. Seifter

Throughout my entire life, I had to explain myself in every situation you can possibly think of- and the thing about our society is that you can’t be honest about something as shameful as a mental illness.
I felt as if whatever I was feeling, other people had it worse. So how dare I complain?

I grew up a prisoner in my own head, my depression and anxiety disorder took a hold of me. There was not a single thought that went through my head unfiltered.
Throughout the years, anxiety and depression disorder became a bit more publicly known causing the taboo to become less of a, well- taboo.
With this publicity came loads of pressure as well, because more and more people were “experts” on giving me the “best” advice on how to cope.
It is extremely annoying to hear this amaaaaazing advice on how to “just be happy”, because “being happy is not that hard”
(I apologise for all the air quotation marks. I just become really sarcastic when I think back of that time of my life.)
5 Years ago today I ran away from home, everybody kept on giving me advice that would surely help me- but nobody actually listened when I said that I had tried it all.

I was restless, helpless and so freaking terrified of my own mind.

I wanted to run away and commit suicide. It’s been 5 years, but today is the first time I can actually admit that that was what my goal was. But then I couldn’t. I ended up going home where everyone was angry and disappointed and l continued living in this hell hole that was my mind.

Years passed, I saw doctors, created scars both on the outside and inside, and grew this hate against myself that I just couldn’t shake.
After I had turned 18, I decided to quit school and go to a mental health facility.
It helped to look at my life objectively, and the crap-load of tests I had to go through did help other people to finally believe me when I said I was not ok.
After a while I left and moved house.
Ever since then I have been okay, not okay, okay, not okay, not okay, okay, not okay;
I just sort of made peace with it, and whenever someone would ask me how I was I would say I was great. The fact that I moved countries and didn’t have to look anyone in the eyes when I said that, helped.
After a while my boss noticed that I was absent more than my colleagues, so he took me aside and wanted me to talk to someone, so I did.

Whenever I need to explain what it’s like to have both anxiety and depression disorder at the same time I word it like this post I found on Tumblr:
“Having both depression and anxiety is staying in bed because you feel like you can’t go to work and then panicking because you do not want to get fired. It’s wanting to go see your friends so you don’t lose them all, then staying home in bed because you don’t want to make the effort. Having both is insanely hard and sucks to deal with.”

They said I needed to go see a GP, and they wanted me on medication, so I talked, and saw a GP, and took the medication that made me feel numb inside.
After all that, people started to ask: “Why aren’t you happy yet?”.
And I didn’t know what to reply, so they explained themselves.
“You’ve gotten help and medication, so why aren’t you happy?”

That got me thinking, that I should stop giving a flying f*ck about what those people said.
It took me quite a few CBT sessions, but I feel okay.
Today I feel better, I feel okay, I took the CBT sessions and the medication, I talked and talked and talked. In the end it was not the medication, but relying on myself that got me through the worst part.
I still have a really long way to go, but I am okay right now.

And I know, that if you are struggling with any mental disorder, you will be okay.
It might take a while, you will struggle a lot.
Life is going to be an absolute b*tch.
But you are strong enough to make it through.

 

helpful contacts/information:

https://www.drugrehab.com/co-occurring-disorder/anxiety/

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😅 Random Q&A- part 2 | RandomRani

What’s the food you could eat everyday for the rest of your life? PASTA PESTO. MMMMMMM.

What is your dream holiday?  For years I have wanted to travel to iceland, but I just haven’t gotten the time or funds yet.  I have planned my trip about a million times in my head, and hopefully 2017 will be the year in which I finally get to see the gorgeous scenery.

What’s your favourite social media? Definitely a tie between Snapchat and Instagram. I love both both the filters and the fact that you can share pictures with your followers without too many words. But Twitter (sharing words without to many pictures in your feed) is also quite nice. I love most social media, because it brings me a bit closer to those who do not live near me or those who read my blog.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? First off, I would give a part to charity. Pay off any “debts” me or my family carry, and buy a house.
I’d also start travelling, blogging full-time and going to volunteer on different places on the world, anywhere I could help.

Why did you move to Brighton, instead of staying in Belgium? I got an amazing job opportunity and I love myself an adventure.

How many tattoos do you have? 3 and counting!

♡ RandomRani

 

 

😅 Random Q&A- part 1 | RandomRani

Over the past 4 years that I’ve had my blog I accumulated quite a large list of questions from you guys, and I think now is time to answer them. 😅

As I said there’s quite a few questions, so I will spread it over a few posts.

How old are you? I am 20 years old, I was born on the 17th of January 1997.

What shoe size do you wear? 
sometimes 3.5, sometimes 4, sometimes 4.5, sometimes 5- as you can tell it varies, it depends on what kind of shoe!

What do you do for a living? I work for a multi-national company in an office- that’s what pays my bills and I enjoy working there.
The dream however is to one day be able to support myself from my blog. I currently make a really small amount of money from it, but hopefully one day I can spend all my time making blog posts for you!

When did you know you were a lesbian? Eh- I’m not a lesbian, don’t get me wrong though, there is nothing wrong with being a lesbian. I’m pan sexual, currently in a lesbian relationship- Ooh you’ve got to lot the complicity of things!
And I knew that I also liked girls when I was 16 and my current girlfriend kissed me for the first time, but it took until I was 17 that I realised I was pan sexual and idgaf about gender!

How did you come out to your parents? I actually didn’t. I just said “I’m in a relationship with Liesl” and my mum said “ok”.
But I feel like you asking that question could mean that you might want some advice on how to come out of the closet.
Don’t be scared of what people might think. I believe that who you love does not change who you are as a person- they have been loving you for so long, will it really matter if you bring a boy or girl home? And if it does I think that might be due to ignorance and I do not mean from your side. You are perfect, your actions show who you are as a person, not who you love.

Please contact the LGBT helpline if you have any serious concerns, worries or fears- they will be able to help you on a much more personal level.
And you can always DM me on any of my social media.

What’s the last compliment you got?  “You’re beautiful” – My girlfriend

♡ RandomRani

 

💋 Confidence is a skill, not a look.| RandomRani

disclaimer: I am fully aware that this post is a re-post. Some of you have asked me about a few of the posts on my previous blog, so I thought I’d move them from my old to my new blog!

I speak to a lot of people on instagram, facebook and twitter (this is only a short list of social media) who complain about the way they look, or ask me how to become more confident- or the most told sentence by 12 – 16 year old girls:

“I wish I looked more like you.” 

And this sentence, although meant as a compliment, hurts my feelings.

Not because I don’t find myself attractive, I am a beautiful human being with flaws just like everyone else.

But because I think the exact same thing.

Can you imagine having a group of 12 – 16 year olds following you on social media of which a dozen watch every move you make (literally- a while back there was a teenage boy in front of my house who recognised the neigbourhood in one of my selfies and wanted to speak to me. @Evan, yes, you know I am talking about you.) while I still make a ton of mistakes myself.

My blog is still growing and it terifies me to know that starting from 1K views you become known in certain groups. Gladly enough I don’t have people posing in my name, showing up at my house daily and most people wouldn’t even recognise me on the street, but it gives me a lot of pressure.

I love doing what I do- and I have a ton of ideas for the New Year so you will be hearing a lot from me 🙂 – BUT, I am still a child, and my life is absolute chaos sometimes and I am not ready to hear the sentence- I wish I looked more like you.

No you don’t wish that, because underneath the layers and layers of make up that I carefully and delicately place on my face each and every morning there’s just a girl.

And yes I have pimples and yes I need to lose a few pounds and yes I barely have any eyebrows and yes I get bad skin sometimes and yes- deep inside I am still a fragile 16 year old.

I still look at other people’s lives and feel as if I should be saying to myself:

“You need to be more like her.”

We are all perfectly imperfect human beings.

And I believe that no matter how you look you should be confident in your own skin.

If there’s one thing I’ve learnt in the past few months it’s that confidence is a skill, because trust me- it has nothing to do with how you look.

And after a while I know you will shine, I know that every single one of you has a light within themselves that deserves to shine as bright as it possibly can.

So stop pushing it away in the darkness- stop hiding yourself. Be confident, and learn the skill.

Looks will follow.

♡ RandomRani

Upgrading to Standard Premier on Eurostar, is it worth the money?|RandomRani

As some of you might now, I recently took a trip to my family in Belgium.
Usually I prefer to travel by coach (f I have the time) since it is extremely cheap, the travel is an experience by itself (since you don’t have to drive, so you can catch up on all your Netflix series but you still get to take the ferry to cross the channel which I looooove.) but when I do not have the time I prefer to travel by train, since the Eurostar is extremely fast.
This time I took the train, trying to save as much time as possible. Since my parents bought me a Standard Premier ticket as a gift, I wanted to tell you about the experience I had in the “fancy” carriage.

First of all, I want to clarify that as I just said my parents bought me this ticket, I am not sponsored for this post. All the opinions stated in this post are my own.

14:05 I arrive in Bruxelles midi.
14:26 After getting a coffee and a quick toilet break I start the hunt for the right platform.
Finding the enterance to check in for Eurostar was quite difficult since they are renovating the previous check in point.
14:31 I found where I need to go, but check in is about to close- I made it and check in goes smooth and fast.
15:00 I get on the train, I notice immediately that the staff is much friendlier.
They did however assume I was in the wrong carriage first and wanted to double check my ticket. I must have appeared a bit lost. They ask if I need help storing my luggage, and they ask if I would prefer a table instead of my single seat.
After I sat down they introduce their selves in person, instead of over the intercom and advice me that they would be coming around in 5 minutes with some drinks.
15:03 the train leaves, I’m a bit disappointed that there is no WiFi on board (no Netflix for me then!). But the seats our comfortable and the view is gorgeous so I just decide to enjoy the trip.
15:14 they come around with the food, I could choose between a lentil salad and a mushroom quiche . I chose the latter.
They gave me a selection of wine, alcohol free drinks, bread and chocolate.
It was pretty darn fancy.
15:21 They come around again asking “if everything is to my wish” (yes, I quote.)
15:30 They come around to clear the table, and ask me if there is anything they can help me with. I think I must look like a child, the way I blushed every time they came around.
We crossed a time zone (GMT +0).
16:14 We arrive in London St Pancras.

Overall the experience was amazing, the staff was extremely friendly, the food was good and the extra leg room and seat space was definitely worth it if you have the means.
There is no WiFi, so you should bring something to entertain yourself.
The upgrade is +/- £30-40 from Standard to Standard Premier so pretty affordable.

I hope you enjoyed this type of post, it was a bit of an experiment!

♡RandomRani